Friendship

Friendship is a story book.

Written by the heart.

The paper built of trust,

And written from the start.

Friendship is an art,

That one must comprehend.

The love is unconditional,

The mark of a true friend.

Frienship is a painting,

Each stroke is pure and strong.

Connecting lives together,

For more than lifetimes long.

Friendship is a song.

The melody sweet and caring.

To listen and be heard.

Through moments meant for sharing.

Friendship is a promise.

To stay through it all,

Through the thick and thin.

Together to rise and fall.

Friendship is a gift.

Given in heart and mind.

Something so very precious,

Something rare to find.

Disapointment

Sometimes I wonder,

What you have become.

What brought about the change,

And can it be undone.

You begged me not,

To push you away.

I never did, and now.

You're the one that strayed.

We used to walk in step,

Perfectly in tune.

And I can see it now,

You've changed to something new.

I knew you were a changer,

Switch up very fast.

But sweety these games,

and fantasy wont last.

I thought you had,

A better head upon ur neck.

And now all I can say:

"Really?! What the heck!?"

Are you really gunna,

let this slip away.

Follow in her footsteps,

Pass by another day.

I know you like the night life,

The party and the games.

I know its fun to remember,

But it wont stay the same.

One day you'll grow up,

And you'll think and wish,

Like everyone else,

You didn't do this.

I see you skip out on,

What's really gunna count,

Instead you have these puppies,

Following you around.

Despite how you talk,

Of all their drama and stuff,

You eat it up like a kid,

And cotton candy fluff.

I guess all I gotta say,

Is I'm disapointed in you.

And I watch you from a distance,

Not at all sure what to do.

Anorexic

The weight that's on my shoulders,

I just can't seem to shake.

No matter how much I give,

There's those who take.

My body thins in the mirror,

As my nightmares show through.

There's a gaunt ghost watching,

My every step and move.

The mirror looks out at me,

Driving me insane.

Why is the world so heavy,

My heart is full of pain.

Emotions take a trip,

On a never ending ride,

And the moon light is pulled under,

The raging winter tide.

The body moves so slow,

So heavy in the air.

They tell me let time pass,

And God will mercy spare.

They say let the heavens,

Take the weight of the Earth.

But how am I to do that?

When I have so little worth.

I am not worthy of that help,

Why do they tell me it at all?

So I can have high hopes?

The hopes that will just fall.

I feel so thin and fragile,

So small and so weak.

But this burden I carry,

Is so very precious to me.

nothingness

I'm not telling how I feel,

I feel nothing at all.

Every emotion is gone.

Don't care if I fall.

Can't tell up from down.

The world is spinning 'round.

And yet it all stands so still.

And nothing feels real.

I'm not sure what to say,

It doesn't make any sense.

There's nothing that goes right.

I see the door; the fence..

I see the world go by.

The clouds float in the sky.

Everything is making sound.

Except for me, I can't be found.

I don't see what to do.

The end seems so near.

The end of this war.

But there's nothing I can see clear.

In deep waters I still tred.

The cold wishing me dead.

But the ground holds more fear,

So I wanna just stay here.

Maybe let my heart drown,

In the water of salt.

Drown in my own missery,

Knowing its all my fault.

Even if its not the same.

I'm still going to take the blame.

It's easier for me to do.

Than to put some of it on you.

With knowing it's my fault,

It's easier to deal.

Easier for me to fix,

And feel what I need to feel.

Needing You

I lay crying, bleeding on the floor.

While my heart beggs for mercy.

You arent the only heart that's hurt.

I wish that you could just see.

I didn't choose him over you,

You've never made me mad.

I didn't push you out,

But now I'm missing you so bad.

I never left you out in the cold,

Somehow you stumbled out.

Somehow on your own.

And now my heart's a-shout.

I wont blame you, cuz I know,

A lot of it's my fault.

I want it back the way it was.

Now my wounds are covered in salt.

It feels like you left,

But I know it's probably just me.

My heart is reaching for you,

I wish you were with me.

The tears fall fast from my eyes,

As I read what you have wrote.

This is all the pain that I can take,

So I leave this little note.

Just so you know how much you meant,

And all that you still mean.

And hopefully one day you'll see,

How much I needed you with me.

How much I needed you by my side,

I tried hard to give you space.

But the more that was given,

The more tears rolled down my face.

Every tear was shed for you,

My warrior, my best friend.

No matter what it feels like,

I'll be with you till the end.

Im so so very sorry,

I really just want you back.

My heart screams for mercy,

And the world soon goes black.

I bleed from every wound,

With silence all around.

Waiting for you to come,

Waiting to be found.

A Game of Waiting

My path is laid before me,

Mistakes have closed the doors,

So maybe I'll give up,

And lay here on the floor.

I see nothing more to do.

Can't change the past right now.

I finally let you win,

Now let me tell you how.

While your cozy and sleeping,

Warm and in a soft bed.

I'll be sitting here,

Wishing I were dead.

I may just take a rope,

Tie a noose around my neck,

Kick over the chair.

Why not? What the heck.

Or I could slit my wrist,

With that icy metal blade.

Let my pain bleed out,

I'm done playing your maid.

If I found the gun.

I could put it to my brain.

Pull the trigger fast,

The quicker my life will drain.

Simply put, there's water.

So easily to drown.

And as I kill myself and sin,

The horns become my crown.

Or maybe I could wait,

And just say "Up yours!"

Wait for Karma to knock you down.

So you can kiss the floor.

Painful Truths

I want the truth but I dont know,

If I can handle it any more.

I've been hit from both sides,

And taken every blow.

My pride is wounded,

Beyond compare.

And sometimes I wonder,

If you really care.

Have you ever wondered,

How much I changed,

Just so I,

Could fit in the frame.

So much of me is lost,

I don't know me anymore.

But I can't change back,

You're higher in score.

I am the water,

While you're the rock.

I'm the moving hands,

On the same old clock.

I want to know,

What you have to say.

But will the truth,

Help me find my way?

I'm begining to wonder,

If I should just give in.

It just isn't working.

And my patience is thin.

So here me now,

And give me a break.

There's only so much I can give,

And only so much you can take.

I'm tired and hurt,

And don't know what to do,

And I cry as I see that I;

Just can't fill these shoes.

You set the standard,

The bar is too high,

So help me here,

I don't want a goodbye.

Need You Here

Wrap your arms around me,

You belong with me.

Hold me close and love me,

And soon you will see.

I beg you to stay,

Hold you back, dont go.

The world inside my mind...?

You dont even want to know.

But you can't leave me here,

All alone and cold,

In the black of memories,

From newest to the old.

I can't face my fears alone.

My friend will you stay.

And baby will you love me,

To keep the fears away.

Both, please hold me.

It's all that I shall need.

To be strong I need you,

Need you here with me.

Heartbreaker With Him.

I'm not your dream come true.

So leave me be, just shoo.

Get out, get gone Romeo,

Leave me now, let me go.

I'm not ur perfect princess,

In a pretty purple dress.

I'm not your Juliet,

So just forget all of it.

I belong to him forever.

And I wont leave him, never.

So just get it through your head.

Not a tear will you shed.

Yes, you are my friend,

Until the very end.

But can't you just see,

That's all you'll ever be.

Tearing Apart

I'm drowning in my tears,

Being pulled apart from either side.

I refuse to choose,

So why make me cry?

I understand the jealousy,

And the disagreements too.

But get it together now,

I'm staying with both of you.

Can't you see this fighting,

Actually really hurts,

I don't know what to do,

As I cry and curse.

I love you both, I do.

So very, very much.

Please don't make me choose,

So no more anger and fuss.

I feel like a rag doll,

Held in tiny toddler fists.

Being torn apart, in half.

I just want this to quit.

I want my friend, my sister,

To stay by my side.

I want him in my arms,

And both in my mind.

I dont just want one to give in,

It solves nothing at all.

Figure it out, work it out.

Before I slip and fall.

It's all up to you,

Find a way to fuse,

So none of us,

Not one of us lose.

It feels like my heart is tearing,

Neither I can leave behind.

So someone stop this now, get it!

Before I loose my mind.

Hidden in the Rain.

The rain keeps pouring.

The tears keep falling.

The pain keeps comming.

And I keep dying.



The sun is missing.

The day's are passing.

The clouds are comming.

And I keep trying.



The nights are longer.

The alcohol's stronger.

I try and ponder;

Why I keep falling.



The years grow older.

The winters are colder.

Pain keeps me sober.

And I keep smiling.



But behind the smile,

Hidden under chest and shirt,

Are the tears I don't cry,

And the deepest pain I hurt.

Waiting

Doesn't life feel like it's a mess?

There's no possible hope to posess?

There doesn't ever seem a way?

The sun is covered, ever single ray.

The seas are too large to swim across.

And the path is covered with trees and moss.

It's just too much to go by.

And to the world you're being shy.

You hold back to keep things sane.

But nothing will ever be the same.

It doesn't seem fair does it now?

It was a good show, time for bows.

It's time to move on when the curtains close.

This is the path that you chose.

You cant go back and start anew.

So just for now you'll be blue.

The storms will rage and the roads are slick.


There's time's you'll get fed up with it.





But trust me when I say again,


The sun will come, no more will it rain.

Held

It must have been the first time,

I truely lay in your arms.

You'd kiss me tenderly,

And blind me with your charms.



Held tight in your embrace.

It felt so very right.

My mind soothed over,

As day turned into night.



In your arms I'm unafraid.

Never scared in your hold.

I'm protected from every fear,

Whether it's new or old.



Safe, warm, happy, and loved.

It's really how I feel.

When I'm held by you,

My world is crystal clear.



Exhaustion washes over me,

The fears don't make a peep.

I'm in your arms once again.

And it's here I finally sleep.

Morning Gael's Cry

New tears wet my cheeks,

As the morn bade me wake.

This day does not in end sound good.

Forever it shall take.



Take my mind and sanity.

Take away my strength.

Take away my courage,

To travel any length.



The scene is layed before me,

A whisper through the air.

The blood and water have been shed,

But there shant ever be a care.



For this world is harsh and cruel,

In many more ways than one.

So wash these tears from my eyes,

And Please bring back the sun.



Light up the given night,

With something like a moon.

And releive me from the shadows,

And wake me up so soon.



Save me from this nightmare.

It is all that I shall ask.

Lady Moon please spare me.

Just this little, simple task.



For if I'm left here with no help,

Surely I will die.

Pass away and soon forget,

My plea, my reason why.

Dinning Table.

Here, let's set the table.

The dinner of life.

There's a silver plate,

And a gold knife.



There is a fork,

As well as a spoon

Any can kill,

If the meal isn't soon.



There's a bowl,

That's full of hate.

And my heart,

Resides on the plate.



There's a rose,

That will burst into flame,

This wont last,

It's all the same.



There's a cup,

Overflowing with hope.

But the cup will empty,

As soon as you choke.



The feast is layed out,

As it's supposed to be.

And beside the dish with my heart,

Is a note, "Don't kill me."



Just sit and stay,

And don't eat,

Watch me live.

Watch each beat.



I give myself to you,

Helplessly on your platter,

And if you eat my heart,

None of this will matter.

Find Someone Else

I'm not ever looking back.

Here! I'm done, done with that.



Not turning my head around.

I wont lay here, broken, on the ground.



Look to the sky, tell me what you see.

And angel and her wings, can you tell it's me?



Give up already, I'm not going home.

This road was given for my feet to roam.



Don't give me excuses, just let me go.

I'm better off just on my own.



Flying on my wings, floating away.

Find someone else to lie to, to say:



"I love you, please be mine."

I'm gone. I'm leaving. Til the end of time.

Your Price

The phone dropped from my grip.

When I saw you were done with it.



I knew something was up with you.

Dredding what I knew was true.



Why didn't I connect it before,

It was laying in front of me on the floor.



Waiting for me to walk over it.

And waiting for me to throw a fit.



But you know I wont, the decision is yours.

I cant stop you, fix it, or give you 'what for's.



I know the result of this, it isnt nice.

But for this choice there's always a price.



I'm going to give hugs, bow, then walk away.

Because this is yours and your price to pay.

GET OUT

You left me long ago.

I don't want you back.

Don't want to see your face.

It's a simple fact.



You intrude in my house.

You better learn fast.

I'm not little anymore.

I'm done with the past.



Accept me as I am.

Or get out of my face.

I'm not changing for you.

I rule this place.



I'll kick you out the door,

Look you in the eye,

Tell you just how I hate you,

And wave a final goodbye.

Please

Night takes away the light,

I'm left helpless on the floor.

The shadows dance around me.

I can't take it anymore.

The dreams start to fade,

What happened to the light?

Why am I all alone?

What didn't I do write?

I got caught up in another.

A wicked battle show.

Screaming where I lay.

How was I supposed to know?

I beg for this unmerciful pain,

To disapear; to leave me be.

But there's a hand at my throat.

I can't speak. I can't breathe.

Let me die. Let this end.

I'll get down on my knees.

I beg. Just let me go.

Release me now. Please.... Please.

Baby Sweet

Beautiful baby,

Cuddled tight.

Little hands,

Ever-so slight.

Little baby,

So loved.

Stars smile,

From above.

Pretty baby,

Welcome here.

Loving baby,

Baby dear.

Cute baby,

Little feet.

Sleep baby,

Dreams sweet.