Count the Scars

You tore me apart, every little bit.

I thought you loved me, but I guess I slipped.

You left me bleeding on the floor,

I watched in pain as you closed the door.

When I'm finally back on my feet.

I walk through life numb, repeat and repeat.

School is torture when I see you with her,

But slowly the past becomes but a blurr.

I forget the reasons I love and hate you so,

I forgot when you left and why you had to go.

It's a little easier to get by these days, having forgot,

How you made me feel and how my breath caught.

And just when I think I've forgotten who you are,

I look back at my heart and count every scar.

The scars so deep that they'll never heal,

And all this pain is all I'll ever feel.

I thought I pushed you from my mind,

But it's nothing but pain again that I find.

Why won't the scars just leave; erase.

Let someone else please take your place.

And yet when I've someone who loves me and calls,

I'm now not the only one who can count the scars.