Friendship

Friendship is a story book.

Written by the heart.

The paper built of trust,

And written from the start.

Friendship is an art,

That one must comprehend.

The love is unconditional,

The mark of a true friend.

Frienship is a painting,

Each stroke is pure and strong.

Connecting lives together,

For more than lifetimes long.

Friendship is a song.

The melody sweet and caring.

To listen and be heard.

Through moments meant for sharing.

Friendship is a promise.

To stay through it all,

Through the thick and thin.

Together to rise and fall.

Friendship is a gift.

Given in heart and mind.

Something so very precious,

Something rare to find.

Disapointment

Sometimes I wonder,

What you have become.

What brought about the change,

And can it be undone.

You begged me not,

To push you away.

I never did, and now.

You're the one that strayed.

We used to walk in step,

Perfectly in tune.

And I can see it now,

You've changed to something new.

I knew you were a changer,

Switch up very fast.

But sweety these games,

and fantasy wont last.

I thought you had,

A better head upon ur neck.

And now all I can say:

"Really?! What the heck!?"

Are you really gunna,

let this slip away.

Follow in her footsteps,

Pass by another day.

I know you like the night life,

The party and the games.

I know its fun to remember,

But it wont stay the same.

One day you'll grow up,

And you'll think and wish,

Like everyone else,

You didn't do this.

I see you skip out on,

What's really gunna count,

Instead you have these puppies,

Following you around.

Despite how you talk,

Of all their drama and stuff,

You eat it up like a kid,

And cotton candy fluff.

I guess all I gotta say,

Is I'm disapointed in you.

And I watch you from a distance,

Not at all sure what to do.

Anorexic

The weight that's on my shoulders,

I just can't seem to shake.

No matter how much I give,

There's those who take.

My body thins in the mirror,

As my nightmares show through.

There's a gaunt ghost watching,

My every step and move.

The mirror looks out at me,

Driving me insane.

Why is the world so heavy,

My heart is full of pain.

Emotions take a trip,

On a never ending ride,

And the moon light is pulled under,

The raging winter tide.

The body moves so slow,

So heavy in the air.

They tell me let time pass,

And God will mercy spare.

They say let the heavens,

Take the weight of the Earth.

But how am I to do that?

When I have so little worth.

I am not worthy of that help,

Why do they tell me it at all?

So I can have high hopes?

The hopes that will just fall.

I feel so thin and fragile,

So small and so weak.

But this burden I carry,

Is so very precious to me.

nothingness

I'm not telling how I feel,

I feel nothing at all.

Every emotion is gone.

Don't care if I fall.

Can't tell up from down.

The world is spinning 'round.

And yet it all stands so still.

And nothing feels real.

I'm not sure what to say,

It doesn't make any sense.

There's nothing that goes right.

I see the door; the fence..

I see the world go by.

The clouds float in the sky.

Everything is making sound.

Except for me, I can't be found.

I don't see what to do.

The end seems so near.

The end of this war.

But there's nothing I can see clear.

In deep waters I still tred.

The cold wishing me dead.

But the ground holds more fear,

So I wanna just stay here.

Maybe let my heart drown,

In the water of salt.

Drown in my own missery,

Knowing its all my fault.

Even if its not the same.

I'm still going to take the blame.

It's easier for me to do.

Than to put some of it on you.

With knowing it's my fault,

It's easier to deal.

Easier for me to fix,

And feel what I need to feel.

Needing You

I lay crying, bleeding on the floor.

While my heart beggs for mercy.

You arent the only heart that's hurt.

I wish that you could just see.

I didn't choose him over you,

You've never made me mad.

I didn't push you out,

But now I'm missing you so bad.

I never left you out in the cold,

Somehow you stumbled out.

Somehow on your own.

And now my heart's a-shout.

I wont blame you, cuz I know,

A lot of it's my fault.

I want it back the way it was.

Now my wounds are covered in salt.

It feels like you left,

But I know it's probably just me.

My heart is reaching for you,

I wish you were with me.

The tears fall fast from my eyes,

As I read what you have wrote.

This is all the pain that I can take,

So I leave this little note.

Just so you know how much you meant,

And all that you still mean.

And hopefully one day you'll see,

How much I needed you with me.

How much I needed you by my side,

I tried hard to give you space.

But the more that was given,

The more tears rolled down my face.

Every tear was shed for you,

My warrior, my best friend.

No matter what it feels like,

I'll be with you till the end.

Im so so very sorry,

I really just want you back.

My heart screams for mercy,

And the world soon goes black.

I bleed from every wound,

With silence all around.

Waiting for you to come,

Waiting to be found.

A Game of Waiting

My path is laid before me,

Mistakes have closed the doors,

So maybe I'll give up,

And lay here on the floor.

I see nothing more to do.

Can't change the past right now.

I finally let you win,

Now let me tell you how.

While your cozy and sleeping,

Warm and in a soft bed.

I'll be sitting here,

Wishing I were dead.

I may just take a rope,

Tie a noose around my neck,

Kick over the chair.

Why not? What the heck.

Or I could slit my wrist,

With that icy metal blade.

Let my pain bleed out,

I'm done playing your maid.

If I found the gun.

I could put it to my brain.

Pull the trigger fast,

The quicker my life will drain.

Simply put, there's water.

So easily to drown.

And as I kill myself and sin,

The horns become my crown.

Or maybe I could wait,

And just say "Up yours!"

Wait for Karma to knock you down.

So you can kiss the floor.

Painful Truths

I want the truth but I dont know,

If I can handle it any more.

I've been hit from both sides,

And taken every blow.

My pride is wounded,

Beyond compare.

And sometimes I wonder,

If you really care.

Have you ever wondered,

How much I changed,

Just so I,

Could fit in the frame.

So much of me is lost,

I don't know me anymore.

But I can't change back,

You're higher in score.

I am the water,

While you're the rock.

I'm the moving hands,

On the same old clock.

I want to know,

What you have to say.

But will the truth,

Help me find my way?

I'm begining to wonder,

If I should just give in.

It just isn't working.

And my patience is thin.

So here me now,

And give me a break.

There's only so much I can give,

And only so much you can take.

I'm tired and hurt,

And don't know what to do,

And I cry as I see that I;

Just can't fill these shoes.

You set the standard,

The bar is too high,

So help me here,

I don't want a goodbye.