Disapointment

Sometimes I wonder,

What you have become.

What brought about the change,

And can it be undone.

You begged me not,

To push you away.

I never did, and now.

You're the one that strayed.

We used to walk in step,

Perfectly in tune.

And I can see it now,

You've changed to something new.

I knew you were a changer,

Switch up very fast.

But sweety these games,

and fantasy wont last.

I thought you had,

A better head upon ur neck.

And now all I can say:

"Really?! What the heck!?"

Are you really gunna,

let this slip away.

Follow in her footsteps,

Pass by another day.

I know you like the night life,

The party and the games.

I know its fun to remember,

But it wont stay the same.

One day you'll grow up,

And you'll think and wish,

Like everyone else,

You didn't do this.

I see you skip out on,

What's really gunna count,

Instead you have these puppies,

Following you around.

Despite how you talk,

Of all their drama and stuff,

You eat it up like a kid,

And cotton candy fluff.

I guess all I gotta say,

Is I'm disapointed in you.

And I watch you from a distance,

Not at all sure what to do.

Anorexic

The weight that's on my shoulders,

I just can't seem to shake.

No matter how much I give,

There's those who take.

My body thins in the mirror,

As my nightmares show through.

There's a gaunt ghost watching,

My every step and move.

The mirror looks out at me,

Driving me insane.

Why is the world so heavy,

My heart is full of pain.

Emotions take a trip,

On a never ending ride,

And the moon light is pulled under,

The raging winter tide.

The body moves so slow,

So heavy in the air.

They tell me let time pass,

And God will mercy spare.

They say let the heavens,

Take the weight of the Earth.

But how am I to do that?

When I have so little worth.

I am not worthy of that help,

Why do they tell me it at all?

So I can have high hopes?

The hopes that will just fall.

I feel so thin and fragile,

So small and so weak.

But this burden I carry,

Is so very precious to me.