Phantom Cinderella

I'm a mother to my family.

A caretaker to my house.

But yet I am invisible.

And I am homeless.

No matter how much I hurt.

Or how much they see.

They dont give a damn.

As long as the house is clean.

My father never cared if,

I passed out at his feet.

Or my mother never cared,

If I was physically beat.

They would never care,

Unless I was on my death bed.

"As long as the house is clean."

Is what they would have said.

I could hold a gun to my brain,

Ready to pull the trigger.

They wouldnt even see me.

"As long as the house is clean."

They dont care if Im broken.

As long as I can take care of them.

Im a phantom cinderella, maid, and slave.

Im never to be seen, unless it is my grave.

Searching

Her steps often faulter,

She curses as she stumbles.

Another branch attacks her.

Hiding the pain as she grumbles.

She's searching, she's searching.

Searching for something right.

She's searching, she's searching,

Into the dead of night.

Trees arch high above her,

Wrapping her in green.

The flowers that engulf her,

Lay out a vivid scene.

She's searching, she's searching.

Searching for something right.

She's searching, she's searching.

Into the dead of night.

The blood stains the cloth.

Scarlet as a rose.

And for the pain she feels,

She takes another dose.

She's searching, she's searching.
Searching for something right.
She's searching, she's searching.
Into the dead of night.

Her halo fades too quickly,

Losing all it's light.

Her wings are fading also.

Losing her freedom flight.

She's searching, she's searching.
Searching for something right.
She's searching, she's searching.
Into the dead of night.

In the mirror she looks,

In the mirror she sees.

The mirror shatters into shards,

As she sinks onto her knees.

She's searching, she's searching.
Searching for something right.
She's searching, she's searching.
Into the dead of night.

She lays there broken.

Finally broken.

Taking nothing more.

The pain is left unspoken.

She's searching, she's searching.
Searching for something right.
She's searching, she's searching.
Into the dead of night.

Returning Home

I cant do this anymore.

I'm tired of swallowing my pride,

Biting my tongue,

Hiding my other side.



Im tired of the walls,

That I built to protect,

But cause yet more tangles,

Confustions that intersect.



Im done with the masks,

That I hide behind.

I'm tired of the lies,

That are all I ever find.



I'm done with this shit,

I'm just walking away.

Leaving it for dead.

No way in HELL I'll stay.



My wings are black,

Halo faded.

Face is solumn,

Emotions jaded.



I fly away to,

A friend who waits alone,

For my return,

My return Home.

Dont Let Them See

Run to the bathroom,
And lock the door.

Turn on the shower.

And lay on the floor.

Do what you must,

To hide the tears.

Keep them away,

From all of your peers.

Get a towel wet and hot,

Press it to your eyes.

Hide the fact that you cry,

In this world that you despise.

You mus'nt be heard.

Dont make a sound.
Dont let them see you cry,

This time around.

Let your tears be silent,

Hide them away.

Whipe your eyes.

Smile the rest of the day.

They cant ever know,

That your tears were shed.

They cant know your heart is broken,

Nor that your insides are dead.

The pain that you feel,

Is sad and real.

But hide your tears,

Behind a mask of steel.

Tragic Two's

White frost.

Torn apart.

Frozen time.

Breaking heart.

I scream.

Last tear.

I'm lost.

Last fear.

She cries.

He lies.

I despise.

Didn't realize.

Say sorry.

Start again.

Say goodbye.

More pain.

Needs freedom.

Needs air.

Nothing's left;

To spare.

Prices paid.

Games played.

Devil stayed.
Angel's shade.

Wings shelter.

Fire kills.

Pain hurts.
Blood spills.

I Walk the Line.

I teeter on the edge,

Of that delecate line.

I work to make things right,

But end up bending my spine.

The line is small.

I must keep track.

Of where I am.

I can't look back.

The past is past.

It's dead, It's gone.

They say life is short,

But it seems too long.

As the years pass by,

I figure I'm doing fine.

As I walk through life,

I walk the line.

Time To Pay.

I'm lifeless, I'm broken.

I'm whispering my farewell.

I'm falling, I'm crawling.

Trying to rid myself of dispare.

Following my dreams;

Never put my mind at ease.

Taisting the water;

My thirst is never at peace.

You're holding the key;

To my mangled, bleading heart.

While the rest of you out there,

Try your best to tear me apart.

So I say my last goodbye,

With the knife tip at my skin.

Releasing all the anger and fear,

For these many years I've held within.

I'm trapped here forever, by my sins.

What else can I possibly say?

I have made a mistake.

It's time now that I pay.